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Sunday, May 23, 2010;
4:15 PM
I'm having a pretty bad day.
This whole thing is a pain in the neck, I just want to go to London and enjoy it. Why can't I do that? Why do I have to find work?
Why do I even bother...
And there's the other thing... No one wants to photograph me.
I'm ugly. I'm fat. I can't lose these couple of kilograms. I feel sick.
I want to cry.
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what if today was your last day?
i used to think that the day would never come...
Sunday, May 16, 2010;
8:50 PM
... i'd see delight in the shade of the morning sun.
... that my life would depend on the morning sun.
The second one is very important for me.
Last night I've finished watching the Vampire Diaries and it reminds me of that (just think about it... "my life would depend on the morning sun"? Halooo, I smell something vampire-ish!). I started on May 8. Today when I woke up it felt like a "one week affair". How weird is that? I was listening to two songs from the last couple of episodes last night (like crazy :D) and when I woke up and turned one of them on it felt like that. Really... like an affair that didn't last long but was awesome. Actually, I was really upset it was over, but now if it didn't continue I would be all right.
So, yesterday I decided I'm going to start living my life and get back to the real world. Saturday was crazy. I was in bed watching Gossip Girl and Heroes. I didn't do anything important today either, but I woke up happy. It's been a long time since I actually felt happy in the morning. I got dressed immediately and then last night came to my mind. It felt distant, like it happened months ago. The whole story...
I saved the last two episodes and watched them together. It was the perfect ending of that affair.:)
So, usually I'm obsessed with everything that has something to with my obsession (like people...), but no. I just listen to the songs and enjoy that I'm happy.
I'm not saying I won't watch the next season, but I'm going to have to wait a year to see it, so who knows?
Holy shit. I didn't want to talk about this. Guess I had to write it down knowing that I don't have a blog for "everyday stuff" like this.
I opened this post to let you know, that I'm going to visit London in the beginning of July and I'm going to stay there for 23 days. I don't know how this happened, but I already bought the plane ticket home... So, July 4-27. I just can't wait.
I'm going to stay with a Hungarian couple. The wife seemed so nice on the phone.
We'll see...
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what if today was your last day?